Been waiting for a straight answer for a day and a half now. To be honest I don't even think these guys know what exactly happened. All the talk among the servicemen at the NAS is about the airdrops from the chinese, and what to do.

To be honest I think if our own military had nuked us it'd be a bit more thorough.

I did overhear a Lieutenant say something about the way the bombs fell matching something he'd read in one of the prep books during basic. I'm going to try and find him again and ask a couple questions.

Lot of stuff happened yesterday, was actually trying to sleep cause it's cold and snowy out. Anyway the noise of them is what woke me up.

Some of you may have seen them, planes in the air. Thought I was dreaming or going crazy, or that I had gone crazy and nothing had actually happened and the bombs never actually fell. Then I got really fearful because the planes were dropping things.

Because of that I spent a couple hours inside expecting more bombs to hit. turns out they were crates of leaflets, MRE's medical stuff.

Here's the full text of the leaflet.

"We the People's Republic of China have seen fit to lend our support to the struggling Citizens of the United States of America after their rabid military generals callously attacked their own populace with nuclear weapons in an attempt to quell the Socialist uprising that had begun to gain traction after disarmament and peace talks failed in 2010.

This People's Army care package contains enough rations and medical supplies for four families for one week. Long enough for final preparations to be completed and proper supply lines to be established for the People's Army to lend Aid.

Signed,

Lt. Commander Yao
Peoples Republic of China
People's Army Ministry of Propaganda
Beijing China"

I think I know what I'm going to have to do now.  Hopefully I can get an actual answer out of the Navy personnel in Lemoore. I really hope this isn't true.. About us nuking ourselves.

Got bored. Was wandering around town a bit today. That damn dog showed up and started chasing me down the street.

It bit me in the leg and dragged me down.

 I had to shoot it because when I shook it off it came in for another go. I had the 1911 and just shot it, right in the face.

I feel sick, like bad Chinese sick. That was someone's dog I killed. I know I was only defending myself but it was still someone's pet at some point.

Still no idea what to do. Someone alerted me to the fact that I hadn't explained how I dealt with keeping the laptop charged and the satellite modem/phone monster I made supplied with power.

I found a solar panel marketed towards the sheep industry back in the army surplus store after I went and poked around in there for a bit again. It's designed to go to an electric fence and mounted it on the body of a desk lamp so I can adjust it's position in relation to the sun. I took the giant tractor battery out of the back of my old truck, the one I drove before the bombs went off, that'd been sitting in the bed for about two years now and am trickle charging it.

I rewired the connections and have a powerstrip duct taped and connected to the battery and solar panel. I can plug the satellite phone and modem into it, and plug the charger for the laptop in as well to charge it up as needed. It works a lot better than my first attempt which was a mess of hot glue, plastic and wires.

And there you have it. A simple adjustable solar charger for on the go. I'll post plans if I get bored and screw around in paint. And If I find a working camera, that'll be the first thing I take pictures of and upload I guess.

Merry christmas, hope everyone else had a better holiday than me.

It's christmas eve, there's snow falling. I'm back at my apartment wondering what to do now. No hometown to go to.. well not for now anyway.

I'll come up with something to do tomorrow I guess.

My mom came out to meet me. We talked, she explained why she argued against my being allowed in. The logic's solid so I can't really complain. My dad would have come out to talk with me too but he's already getting into arguments with the other ranchers on how to take care of the silly amount of cattle Coalinga now has.

anyway care package aqcuired, contents are
Weatherby Vanguard rifle in 5.56/.223 + 500 rounds of ammunition
Weatherby SA-12 shotgun + 250 rounds of birdshot + the bucket of oddball modded loads I made a few years ago for my brothers.  I'll need to sort out the confetti rounds.

A few pounds of powder and an assorted number of primers

It hit me later that I'm an idiot and there's a bunch of reloading supplies back at my apartment. I guess my mind didn't make the connection the first time I saw them probably a month ago?

I also got a couple canteens and notes from people that want me to act as mailman for them.

Really..it kinda pisses me off that these people don't want me in the community and turn around and want me to deliver their mail. Not sure what I'll do.. Might use them for fire tinder or something, or deliver the notes.. not going to be the freakin mailman forever though.

News is, in short. they aren't going to let me in.

In the long it's got to do with their concept of letting outsiders in. Right now they know they can sustain the population until law and order has resumed. Sounds like my own mother argued against letting me in on the grounds that she didn't want to deal with some of the other kids that were outside the valley when it all happened.

Anyway sticking around here till tomorrow, the mayor came out to deliver the news and said something about some of the people in town organizing a small care package for me.

Got the radio working now, can hear Auberry radio, and a couple other stations, one of them obviously U.S. military giving out directions to survivors..... It gives people hope I guess.

It's outright snowing now and getting colder. Odd since Coalinga's always been a bit under the snowline in even the coldest winters, and when it did snow it was more like sleet, but this is undeniably snow.